When all becomes nothing.

#1410

Recently, I just confirmed the release date of my results.
It's kind of like, unlucky because i falls on next Tuesday when I'm suppose to be @ Genting.
Technically, I'm like "what the hell" now.
It's not like I don't want to get my results.
It's not like I want to get it either.
Why humans are so indecisive?

Another thing that I'm worried bout` is that ..
I actually subscribed from school to receive my results via messages.
So if I bring my phone over, it's very likely that I'll know my results there.
If the score isn't nice, obviously it'll affect my mood.
If the score is nice, then it's alright, in fact I'll be more happy.
But then again, I'll be "away"..
I wonder if the message can be received @ Genting.
If it can't, then I'll spend the day worrying bout` my results.
Still, it's going to spoil my mood.
Again, why are humans like this?

Somehow,
I'm reminded of my grades.
I did mentioned here before that I gotten 4A+ twice in a row in semester 2 and obviously I was too happy bout` it. But this has changed because I found out that, despite scoring so many A+ I'm not the top 10 in my course. This conclusion is made with groundless fact/prove because I concluded based on what I saw.

On the last day of school, we were told to clear our things and bring everything home. Then, there's this forum talk consisted of bout` 10 students. For these students, they're like the pros in the course. I dare to say that, not even half of those students scored better than me in semester 2 and why were they invited to the forum and not me? This is when reality comes and there's only one reason to explain this which is, they're among the top and I'm not.

I'm not saying that I wanted to be the top or anything, really.
It's because I've got straight A+ for twice and most of those students didn't.
By those students, I'm referring, only 3 people among those got 4 A+ twice.
So I'm like, "what the fuck".
My grades ain't reflected in my overall results.
Therefore, what's the point of scoring so well and in the end there's nothing.
Getting so many As are really like nothing.
Back in semester two, people are like "envy" of my As.
And now, it's all nothing.
It just showed nothing.
It's for show.
In the end, what people cares are the GPA not the grade alphabets.
It's just rubbish that I got.
******
Met Lili and Hwee at dangerous BPP earlier to get Genting stuff.
In the end, I just bought lays and nothing else.
One good news today, Hwee painted her nails.
HAHAHAHA.
And I've bad news today.
I burned my bow unintentionally, fuck myself.
I was playing maple private server.
I've been collecting "maple leaves" for days/weeks.
Because these leaves can be exchanged for maple weapons.
In order to get the level 77cross bow...
I've to spend 2000 leaves, 5million and 2 level 67(?) crossbow.
In order to get level 67(?) crossbow...
I've to spend 200 leaves, 500k and 2 level 47(?) crossbow.
In order to get level 47crossbow...
I've to spend 200 leaves, 500k and 1 level 33(?) crossbow.
In order to get level 33(?) crossbow...
I've to spend 200 leaves, 500k.
Can you like calculate the total amount of leaves I've to collect just to exchange for the best one?
And when I finally managed to exchange the bow...
I wanted to try scrolling the old bow that I used.
In the end, I actually put the scroll on the new exchanged bow.
And it failed, therefore weapon destroyed.
I'm like, "WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED".
So, I'm feeling very depressed and I decided to just stop playing.
ARGH, HELL!

Just a few more days and I'll be able to get out of this country.
And I hope MiniToons has my sweet on Sunday.
Otherwise, I think I'm going to be emo.